★ A Breath of Life

True I just came back from German camp yesterday and am dying to relay my experience, but I found this to be much more urgent.

I learned only about 5 minutes ago that my cousin Brianna passed away. She wasn’t the healthiest child, but wasn’t too bad either. She was born with some problems, an extra toe, unable to eat, and a few other problems I don’t really know the details of. I do know however that she had some type of surgery to tie down her intestines. This morning she began experiencing some stomach pains. Only about a half an hour ago, she passed out and was rushed to the hospital. Just as they were about to bring her into surgery, she passed away.

It was all so sudden and depressing. She’s only 5 years old and was so looking forward to being able to attend kindergarten this next school year. She’s just learned to read and become much more active than before, all her past ailments seemed have been getting better, but I guess we weren’t so lucky. Please pray for my Aunt and Uncle and Brianna’s little sister Tia, she probably won’t understand, but perhaps it’s better that way. I imagine the pain they must be going through, Brianna was like a miracle baby. My Aunt was anable to have children before, though she longed to have one. She went through extensive surgeries till finally she had Brianna, a miracle! And yet, she’s been taken away. And of course, this death has reminded us of our lost loved one. Suddenly the laughters we had while eating dinner only moments ago ceased and everything put away. Everything suddenly seems depressing both because of the loss of Brianna and the memories that this brings back.

I always wondered, but will never know what Brianna will look like or become in the future (she had a few disabilities, still unable to talk at 5 and lacked some social ettiquite). And I still wonder what Brian would have looked like or became in the future. Would he have looked like Elliot? Be smart and nice like him too? Or would he have been the opposite, outgoing and play sports (I’m leaning more to the smart computerish type a guy, the latter seems highly unlikely for anyone in our family)? He would have been a sophomore now since he was born in December. He would have to take the CAHSEE next week So many questions that can never be answered… or can they?

I’m sure that Brianna is in a better place know. When I think about it, what would her life here have been? Would she have been picked on at school because of her speach impairment? Would she do ok in her classes? Would people have looked down on her. Now I know at least that she is spared any of these feelings of being an outcast, or being different. I’m sure she’s happy. I can’t wait to see her and Brian again. I’m excited about heaven